So, like I've said many times before, right now I am in the process of moving my lower jaw back to make my overbite even worse. Then, come surgery, they will push it out so I'll have a normal lower jaw. I don't know all the medical terminology and everything, but my orthodontist and surgeon have discussed this a lot and decided this is the way to do it in order for me to get the best possible results.
It's been a slow process, but I've been dealing with it. Yet, it's getting harder because I can actually start to see how bad my overbite is becoming. I know this is technically a good thing, because it means all the orthodontic work is doing what it's supposed to do. However, it's difficult to see my lack of chin and poor side profile go from bad to worse. I have been self conscious about my side profile my entire life so seeing it get even worse is taking a toll on me. I'll be feeling perfectly content with the way I look and then I'll catch a glimpse of my side profile in a mirror or something and just feel terrible. I know it will all be worth it in the end and I am completely aware that I sound shallow and superficial, but I guess I just needed to rant about my frustrations.
Oh, and to make matters even worse, my surgeon and orthodontist now do not think my teeth will be ready for surgery on March 15th. They now think I may have to wait until May. I was so upset when I found out because for so long March 15th just seemed like this finishing line that I was getting closer and closer to reaching, and now, I don't know exactly when the surgery will be. I think the not knowing is the worst part of it all.
Here's some recent photos. I can't even handle my side profile, it's so bad haha
I was just getting ready to go outside, hence the giant scarf. From the front and smiling, I think I look like a relatively normal human being. But then I see my side view and lack of chin, and I'm just like wtf.
But enough negativity for now! I'm just been having a couple of rough weeks but I know it will all be worth it and by this time next year, hopefully I'll be healthy, happy, and a lot more confident!
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
So I finally got a different wire to move my front bottom teeth back..and oh my god, I am in so much pain right now. I know this is nothing compared to the actual surgery pain, but I'm tempted to steal one of my puppy's teething toys! Hopefully the pain will go away soon. I'll definitely be eating some frozen yogurt today..I don't know what else I'll be able to chew
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Happy New Year everyone!
When I first found out that my surgery would probably be in March 2013, it felt like that was a million years away. Now it seems like it's just around the corner! I cannot believe that I've had my lower braces on since June. It really has gone by quickly. After months of preparing and stress and anxiety, I'm actually starting to get giddy that I'll be having the surgery soon. It's scheduled for March 15th, but there's still a chance it might need to be later. I've been going to my orthodontist every 10-14 days, but because of the holidays, my next appointment isn't until January 17th. Hopefully by then my teeth will be where my orthodontist wants them to be and we can confirm the March 15th surgery date.
I feel like my life has been at a stand still for the last couple months. I graduated college in May and after much discussion with my parents they thought it would be best for me to come home, take some time off, and focus on getting this surgery. So, instead of staying in New York and getting a job immediately after graduation (like I always envisioned I'd do), I had to come home to Maryland and rethink what I was going to do. It was really difficult, especially when all my college friends were getting their first jobs and apartment hunting and I had to come home. In the beginning of the process, it was really unclear when I would be ready for surgery. At first, they thought I might be able to get it in July, but then it changed to March, and even now it's still not set in stone. So I came home looking to do something really flexible since I never knew exactly when I would have to take time after to recover from the surgery. So now I'm taking MBA classes at a local college, but I'm hoping to transfer somewhere else after the surgery because I want a program more specialized in what I got my undergraduate degree in. I'm going through the grueling application process now and taking the GRE for the second time on Friday (the GRE's are awful! I wish they were not a requirement). Once I'm done with the GREs and have all my applications in, I am going to feel so relieved. Hopefully then I can get a part time job and just wait for my surgery to happen!
I am really looking forward to this year. 2012 was stressful and just filled with so much uncertainty regarding this surgery. I think 2013 is going to be my best year yet!